A light into my dark place.

Well here it is folks, the midsemester slump. It's hit me hard this semester. It's also coupled with the fact that I am going to Guatemala in 11 days (which, don't get me wrong, is super exciting... It's just overwhelming, and I just don't want to do anything but go to Guatemala).

I am pretty much pooped. I feel so apathetic. I don't want to do work. I don't want to go to class. (you shouldn't feel sorry for me, by the way... There's no real reason I feel this way, I think).

Anyways, lately, I've been in a slump. A Funk. A groove.

So today, I decided that I needed Jesus. Which I guess is a pretty good realization, and I wish I realized it more to be quite honest. It'd be nice if I had this thought everyday, because this realization is truth, all day, everyday.

Let me tell you that I am not the "open my Bible randomly and let God speak to me that way" kind of person. I like to read through sections of scripture at a time.
But today, I opened my Bible, on the way to the New Testament, when I opened Jeremiah. I opened to Jeremiah 31 specifically. I didn't read it all. I just read part of it.

 ^1(A) "At that time, declares the LORD,^(B) I will be the God of all the clans of Israel, and they shall be my people."
 ²Thus says the LORD:"The people who survived the sword
   found grace in the wilderness;
^(C) when Israel sought for rest,
 ³the LORD appeared to him^[a] from far away.
^(D) I have loved you with an everlasting love;
   therefore^(E) I have continued^(F) my faithfulness to you.
^4(G) Again I will build you, and you shall be built,
   O virgin Israel!
^(H) Again you shall adorn yourself with tambourines
   and shall go forth in^(I) the dance of the merrymakers.
^5(J) Again you shall plant vineyards
   on the mountains of Samaria;
the planters shall plant
   and shall enjoy the fruit.

He has loved me with an everlasting love; therefore He has continued His faithfulness to me. Again He will build me, and I shall be built. Again I shall adorn myself with tambourines and shall go forth in the dance of merrymakers.
(I'm such and Israelite!)

I will get through this "slump." And I will be built up again. I will dance with the merrymakers. Even though right now, I feel exhausted, He is faithful, and He provides.

It has been a sort of dark time this week. At the end of wind ensemble every Wednesday, a group of people get together and pray for our group, our school, our community, country, town, etc. I go every week to this prayer meeting because it's really encouraging to me. So this week, I went, but I couldn't pray. I don't know why.... But I definitely think that other people realized it (non-verbal cues, I guess).
I am glad I felt the realization that I need Jesus today because I was very encouraged by reading His Word today! God is good 100% all the time!