Ever since Guatemala, I've obviously realized that I think God wants me to go into international social work/missions work etc. This has been an interesting realization for me because it's totally different than everything I thought I'd be doing. In every way. It's also crazy because I have no idea what that means. I mean, I don't know what country. I don't know where in the world I'll be. I don't know anything about where I'll be in even two years. I don't know what language I'll be speaking. All I know is that God will provide.
The other day, I had a really crazy thought. I thought to myself "I can't wait to be out of this country." Now, I have two things to say about this thought.
A). Why I thought it: I had this thought because I was sitting in my room, staring at all my stuff. And all my roommate's stuff. and all my suitemate's stuff. and all this stuff. All this stuff that I don't even need. And I thought "I can't wait to get out of this place, where we 'need' things that we don't really need." I just think it's so sad to think that we "need" all this random crap, and some people out there don't even know what it is that we "need." It doesn't make sense to me.
B). Why it's so significant: The thought "I can't wait to be out of this country" solidified something within me. It made it for sure that I'm not supposed to be here, at least for some time (I don't know how long I'll be away on missions... I don't know anything about it). It was the first time that I had took this fact as a fact, the first time I admitted that my future isn't here.
This is super scary at sometimes, and super exciting. I am so excited to see other places, and to help people, and to be fulfilled by fulfilling God's calling on my life, and what I believe is the call on all Christians (whether we are staying in our homelands, or going far away). I am excited to learn and see all that God has for me.
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