A look back; A look forward

I decided it would be beneficial/interesting to take a look back at where I thought I would be as a senior, when I was a freshmen. So here goes!

1. I thought I'd be a year older: I'm graduating early. So I always thought I'd be 21 when I graduated. Until about a year ago. Now, I have to be ready to move on in just a few short months. I feel like I could stay here for 4 more years! It's been really hard to grasp that.

2. I thought I'd still be friends with the people I was friends with. My first semester, I had incredible friends. We did everything together. But, I've come to realize that those relationships were much like the ones I made senior year of high school: simply just to get by. We needed each other because we were all lost, and trying to find out who we were going to be. We were all finding our niche here at Roberts, and mine wasn't with them. This isn't to say that we hate each other now. We just don't see each other. All this being said, I have made incredible, life-long friends here at Roberts. People who I know will always always be there for me. In addition, I've also learned that even if these friendships don't work out, I know that there will always be others. I will never be alone. This is a big world, with lots of other people to become friends with.

3. I thought I might be in a relationship. This is probably the most embarrassing. I mean, I thought by now, I'd be in a relationship. That is not the case. Which is fine, most days. Some days, it gets a little tricky, but for the most part, I'm good. Lately I've been doing a lot better in this department. I think it's because now instead of thinking about being in a relationship, I've been thinking about adoption. I've even began to wrap my head around the fact that there's a good chance that I'll have adopted before I even get married, or even meet the person that I would want to marry. This has changed my views on relationships totally.

In the end, I am not anywhere near the person I thought I would be. And it's okay. I like who I am. I am so grateful to be in a place that forces me to grow, that challenges me in every way, but also supports and encourages me through everything. I feel incredibly blessed to call Roberts home because it has changed my life in just about every way.